that would give you a sense of community
and belonging. I would place a cardboard sign
in your vicinity that says "Koolaid Ice Cold"
and you would sit behind it waiting for people to pull
up in their cars and ask for a particular
color or size of the sugary drink. You would
realize that sometimes selling stuff is a really
cute activity that can make people like you if you
do it in the right charming way. It would be like you were
in a trance of community and involvement.
Your previous self-imposed isolation
with your moody putdowns and spiky one-liners
would seem a distant memory. So great would the sensation
of being a part of something be to you
that the simple act of distributing a sugary,
brightly colored cold drink would give
you a feeling not at all unlike the feeling
one gets while dubbing a film with a new,
more modern, benevolent voice. Walking around Brooklyn like
you're in Southern California in your Vans
and really only wanting to belong. This
is just one example of my plans for you.